Fat Fat Go Away, No One Wants You Anyway...

Seriously, yet again I have gone down the path of Google-ing the internet for weight loss surgeries. Lapband, new gizmo band, stomach stapling, jaw wiring were all valid for me today. I even went so far as to check out the free seminar times for the Northwest Weight Loss Centers in Everett, WA. Spoke to my older brother this past weekend and he is under the blubber along with me. He has me beat though by approaching 300 lbs. to my measly 225 lbs.

I just want to shout, “What the flipping hell?!?” I watched Biggest Loser again last night and just wanted to shoot the people on that big scale. Yes, they look like me but by golly they were finally losing weight. Albeit took working out 4 – 5 hours a day and eating only authorized controlled foods on “the ranch”. I want a ranch like that and I want to drag my older brother with me. We are the fatties in the family. My younger sister and next oldest brother also struggle with weight but are having some success. My brother and I are definitely the biggest siblings. It just sucks, plain and simple, sucks. ‘

It is like some uncontrollable urge that makes you go through the drive through and order the quarter pounder with fries. I did order ice tea. I am finished with the soda, diet or otherwise and no milk/cheese product either. What I can’t figure out is why the hell can’t I lose weight by just being normal? My freak side-show office mate burns upwards of 4000 calories a day and loses weight because he doesn’t eat after a workout but has a couple glasses of wine instead. I want to pinch his little head right off his skinny ass shoulders.

Maybe if I chant every day… fat fat go away no one wants you anyway. Head is now banging on my desk in frustration. I can’t control my actions, I can’t control my mouth, I can’t control my freakin’ weight. It just sucks. And yes, I continue to exercise every day because I can not imagine what weight I would be up to if I didn’t exercise.

Pesky Weekend Pounds

And here they are again, those pesky two pounds that sneak onto my body over each and every flipping weekend. What gives? I exercised, I stayed on my feet burning calories, and okay I did sneak some candy and the boyfriend baked bread. Hot crusty bread fresh from the oven with butter could explain some of it but I declined dinner in favor of the bread. Can a girl get a break any where?

Read a great except from a fitness magazine regarding exercising versus getting enough sleep. So I am trying a new experiment by sleeping in to 5:30 am Monday and Wednesday rather that getting up at 4:50 am to exercise. Those days will be my weight training and Pilates schedule after work. On Tues, Thurs, and Friday I will continue to get up at “oh-god-thirty” to do my 30-minutes of treadmill and minor weight training. When I am pissed off on the weekends, I can add another workout. Working out the anger or frustration in the exercise room is always a good thing.

I am drinking more water and tea per Dr. Oz advice as well as Acai juice. I ended up adding a concentrate to my liquid vitamin so I have an all-in-one vitamin/Acai mixture. In addition, I found Acai powder at the local Fred Meyer and have it in my desk drawer at work for supplemental juicing. Taking a swig of vitamin or glucosamine is a better alternative for me than pills. I am a gagger.

I’ll post the name of the magazine supplement that I am reading because it is full of great advice. Note to self – the magazine aisle at the grocery store is just as bad as the candy aisle for me. I always end up picking up a couple of unplanned mag-rags if I go that way.

One more poppet of information to leave you with before I sign off for today. I am trying something called Night Skin recommended on the Rachel Maddow show and will keep you posted with results on my skin renewal.

"Oh That's Obese" Wii That

And in all that time did I lose one stinking pound, nope. I gained a couple and struggled to finally get those new additons off but still wallowing around in my overweightness. Have I hit my red flag weight yet? Oh yeah, 225 and it bites big. I am wheezing again on the stairs. Darn it! Lost two to get back to 223 this morning, thank the gods.

Yes, I am still working out on a regular basis. Saturday - kickboxing for 45 minutes, Monday - cardio for 30, Tuesday - weight training for 30, Wednesday - pilates for 50 minutes, Thursday - weight training again and today... well, I slept in until 5:28 am and then rushed around to get to work on time.

Guess I will be working out tonight, probably do a Wii Fit workout. I love my little Mii. She is a sassy fat obese little blonde thing. Every time I step on the Wii Fit board the stupid Wii has to do the "ohhh" like it hurts. When it measures my weight it always has to punctuate with the "oh that's obese" statement. Like I haven't heard that ever since I bought the damn thing.

I must say though, I do like the Wii Fit and it does keep me coming back.