Seriously, yet again I have gone down the path of Google-ing the internet for weight loss surgeries. Lapband, new gizmo band, stomach stapling, jaw wiring were all valid for me today. I even went so far as to check out the free seminar times for the Northwest Weight Loss Centers in Everett, WA. Spoke to my older brother this past weekend and he is under the blubber along with me. He has me beat though by approaching 300 lbs. to my measly 225 lbs.
I just want to shout, “What the flipping hell?!?” I watched Biggest Loser again last night and just wanted to shoot the people on that big scale. Yes, they look like me but by golly they were finally losing weight. Albeit took working out 4 – 5 hours a day and eating only authorized controlled foods on “the ranch”. I want a ranch like that and I want to drag my older brother with me. We are the fatties in the family. My younger sister and next oldest brother also struggle with weight but are having some success. My brother and I are definitely the biggest siblings. It just sucks, plain and simple, sucks. ‘
It is like some uncontrollable urge that makes you go through the drive through and order the quarter pounder with fries. I did order ice tea. I am finished with the soda, diet or otherwise and no milk/cheese product either. What I can’t figure out is why the hell can’t I lose weight by just being normal? My freak side-show office mate burns upwards of 4000 calories a day and loses weight because he doesn’t eat after a workout but has a couple glasses of wine instead. I want to pinch his little head right off his skinny ass shoulders.
Maybe if I chant every day… fat fat go away no one wants you anyway. Head is now banging on my desk in frustration. I can’t control my actions, I can’t control my mouth, I can’t control my freakin’ weight. It just sucks. And yes, I continue to exercise every day because I can not imagine what weight I would be up to if I didn’t exercise.
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